Everything have not been going well smoothly lately... Got involved with my bf family problems & just feel that because i will be the daughter-in-law one day i have to help out with her problems... Its not that i don't wish to help out but in this manner i certainly don't wish to get involve with it but it seems no choice. I'm kind of tired with everything that have been happening when we first started off till now... Haiz... At first there is another gal in the picture than all the gambling problems, his bumbing around not doing anything in life, his quarrel with his twin brother, favourtism in this family, constantly asking & "threatening" him to do things, his father pass away, his mother problem, their own family & relative problems & lastly moving out of their currntly shelter problems... I understand that life is never a smooth journey for anyone but just don't really want to get involve in problems which are not mine in the first place... Just feel very piss off with it. Simply start to not understand this family & their thinking, could i say that their upbring from last time till now is just so wrong!
I know that everybody is being brought up differently---> family culture & their pass down traditional but honesty should at least be one part of our upbring right! Just because that quarrel is a bad thing that will harm any relationship it does not means that being happy together all the time will be of any help to the relationship as well!! Its so pointless to say everything out when the person is dying & its just so pointless to appreciate somebody when you going to die soon as well!! Quarrel do help to encourage more understanding between both parties, at least there is a chance to make the realtionship stronger & not break the whole realtionship depending on hw you see things! My 2 good friends tell me that if i do marry him one day i will also be marrying into his current family problems as well & i sense a lot will be coming my way, could i just says that im simply just sooooooooooooooooooo tired to keep constantly being a mother to teach them everything & sooooooooooooooooooooo tired to get involve with their problems especially its so difficult to get the msg accross to people who are falling in love & sooooooooooo stubborn & not willing to accpet people opinion.
I'm tired, dead tired, exhausted, being in this relationship seems like it will never be smooth at all....... Haiz.... When will everything end and he will be a teacher to me rather than me always being a teacher.... When will i have the space for myself to breathe & feel relax... When???......
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