Hw much of Filial Piety to give??

Things have never been going smoothly for me at all because i always keep things to myself... I'm wondering how much of Filial Piety i should give n do to my parents? I know that this 25years plus its tough to bring up so many gals esp when we are diffrent individual being with different character and needs. I know that its tough being a mum and the pain she have to go through when she is pregnant with me and the pain the feels when she is in labour with me, i always try to be a good gal n listent to what they says and even when i have things that i wan to buy i will earn it for myself. During most school breaks i will look for job to do so that i can buy what i wanted for myself and they will have less burdance esp when Pei wanted almoset everything under the sun. But this time round it came to a point to me how much of filial piety that i must give to my parents when i dont even know mi ur gal or nt?!

I know i have kept everyth to myself or tell my friends but i do still need some love n attention form you guys!!! I had always stand by their side n try to be understanding n think for you all and verybody in this family!! But have u guys stop for a moment and spare a thought for mine feeling? Yong is the youngest among us sis, i know everybody dote her a lot and this include me!! Every year during her school break in aust u will ask her to come back to Spore she can stay here nt working n if u are going for holiday to any country u will ask her to join along. She came back this holiday and spend time at home doing nothing n now she went o Hong Kong and Japan for holiday!! What abt me ?? I have to go work you never even ask me whether do i want to go holiday with her or not ? You always wan me to go work!! You are no different from Pei!! In the both of ur mind i should work n help put dis family coz i so old already!! I should do this for the family n give u monhly income to help out the family!! I shld stay at home to help look after the family n look after the house n look after the maid coz im the elderest in the family since the rest have already marry out of the hse!! But did u ask what i want?!! I wan peace n quiet and not get involve in any of these stufffs!! I wan to go for breaks n holidays!! I want to go abroad to study!!! All beacuse u say that u will worry about me and keep asking me wat if anyth happen to me there!! All because i want to give the rest their chance to go first and so i miss my chance arh?!! All because u all have to many comments for me!! All because of these i never have the chance to go!! Now what else did u say!! You tink your dad print money arh?? No i dont tink so all i wan is the chance to study in UK!! If i really think that he prints money i wld have demand for branded stuffs all these while!!! But never for once i did!! I already try my best to be a filial gal but you all cant be bother abt wat i have done!! Sometimes i wonder mi you daughter or not? Y mi being treated so unfairly!!

Pei dont like her room decoration and quarrel with you but i try to live with mine by adding things that i need n keeping it clean! I already feel very fortunate to have a room of mine own with mine own toilet!! But you have to come n scold me off saying that i wan to change anything in my room i have to pay for it myslef!! When did i not pay for it myself!!! When have u all get me somthing that i like!! Yong wants a digital camera you buy for her ?? Wat abt me? I have to stand at the roadshow, skipping classes to earn for mine!! You always says you love me? Yar you love to scold me n forget i ever exist in this world in this hse!!! When im angry n throw my temper everybody will says i crazy!! Yar im crazy coz u all have show my the kind of unfair treatment i shld be given coz im the middle child!! I should nt be studying at my age n should be working!! When my friends and other people are so encouraging towards my studies you all only know how to look down on me!! Than i sld use my insurance claim $ to pay for my school fees when im so old already!! But do u have any idea wat dat s$ is all for??!! Its just in case in the reast of my life im still sufferung from pains i have to use them for treatments and worst of all pay for operations if i need it!! $$ is so impt to u than my life its? If dat's the case i wish dat i nv survive the accident n die there n than rather than to suffer all these from u all!!

Dont tell me that if i wan to go abroad i can all i haf to do is say it out! This is not truth!! That year when im with Rick n Yong went to Hk with u i told u i wan to go u says go for wat! Im left alone in Spore! Rick went to Genting to celebrate New Years Days!! I went up to look for him with just less than 100RM with me n halfway through the journey im being look like n idot travelling alone n got no nt enough money for lunch n Spore young couple look dwn on me!! Than in Genting had to be bullied by Rick with quarrels and i had to withdrawl $ for him to gamble he just win back his n nv even mention abt my $! Than i told you i wan to go Aust coz i nv been there wat did u tell me? Ask me to work and pay for my own trip there!! Pei went to HK for a week plus trip alone nobody knows hw much she spend only only she came bac with extra luggage n spend ur money to go there and the things she buys it also being paid by u all!! Wat me!! Earn ur own is wat i hear from u all!! Im suppose to earn for wat i wan in life!!! I shld to earn dis while u provide for them!! Y coz im so old liao i dun deserve anyth form u all!!

This is the FXXXing life that i have to go through in my life... Yar thanks you all bring me down here to finsih what i had nv finish!! For the invisible louve that i receive form all of you!! I will still be filial gal to you all as much as i can but how much of filial i shld b n shld give to you all?? I really don't know anymore when i dont even know mi ur gal or u just pick me up from now where??? I know you dont like me to compare than stop treating me unfairly!!! Since young u all have treated me unfairly coz of Pei than i have to be kick out of the room to sleep in the living room!! Dont tell me dont compare when u cant even feel the hurt u all have cause to me!! When u all nv treat me as part of this family n when u all nv treat the correct way i shld b treated... Dont tell me that i shld nt do dis when u all had nv care abt me n my feelings!! Dont tell me wat i shld do when u all had nv been through wat i been through!! Stop pushing me to the edge to the world n make me do things that i dont like and u all dont like!!! Stop breaking my heart and stop making me cry when its all ur fault!! Stop making everybody life difficult when we shld b live together in a happy n harmony family!!