Memories Of My Dear Friends

I have problems sleeping in the night again... Think i sleep too much yesterday that's why i cant fall asleep now. So i'm thinking of clearing my cupboard and looking through all the cards that i receive from my friends during my Secondary School days... It really brought back many memories of my past... Both happy and sad... The cards gave me a reasons to believe in myself and im glad that i have so many supportive friends beside me all these years and all these while even though we have lost contacts. Thanks you very much my dear friends! :-)

I have a good friend who is very creative and good in art. She always draws very nice things and mail to me till now im keeping all these things and cards she have done for me. She is married now and the sad news was i missed her big day! I just moved house and never kept my friends updated of my new address. She sent her wedding card to my old address, so i'm not able to attend her wedding. I'm so sad that i had miss her big day. However no matter what I'm glad that i met and became good friends with her! :-)

Reading through all the cards there is something that i would like to code from one of the card that my best friend during those days sent to me:

A friend is...
A hand when you need it, a smile when you're sad,
A lift when you're weary, a song when you're glad,
A help when you falter, a word when you're blue,
A hope for the dreams that are specail to you!
And this brings all the thanks that a card can extend TO YOU - just for being that kind of friend!
I hope you still remember who you are.

When im falling down you are there to help and support me and we understood each other very well back than. Every year you will send me a birthday card reminding me that i'm older this year and should be more matured in my thinking. We all grew up and dirfted apart having our own lives and now you are married with a kid at the sametime facing problems with your marriage.

My dear friend, i have not forget that we will be best friends always no matter what happen but there is a limit to what we can do for each other. As friends, we can confine with each other our secerts trusting that the other party will help to keep it for us, we advise and give solutions to the problems that we are facing and we help each other to be strong and face reality. All the secrets that you told me i kept it well and in my heart but whatever i tell you will be spill out to other people. I meant you well and wanted to help you but you turn my help away. My sister told me that if we are really good friends we should help each other no matter what happen but i ask my sister how should i help when she don't even want to listen and think about what i had to said to her? She told me just try your best and tell her. I tried till i really giev up cause you just never changed.

Yes, i haven been more matured and in control of my life as how i wanted it to be. I met friends along the way who guide me through the right path, ex-bfs who helped me grow up and taught me not to trust people too easily. I learnt all these through the hard way but i'm glad i did. All these process help me to grow up and be more matured and wised. You have skip the process and try to run away from reality and the truth how life can be like... Living in a world that you created for yourslef... Living in the past instead of facing the present and future.

My dear, i hope that you will wake up and face reality. Don't be jealous and compare with other people anymore, we all have our own good and bad things in life its a matter of being happy and glad with what you have now that is important. This will make you to be happy and a cheerful person! Learn to be a happy person and try to change yourself. We are a year older now and you are a mother of 1, be strong, don't run away from reality and stop creating a world of your own. What past is past, its a lesson that we had learnt! We should be wiser by now and be able to handle our current situation better!

I hope that you will look forward to the present and the future and be a happy person than before. Face your marriage problems with courage, have a good heart to heart chat with you hubby if the marriage can be save there will always be a way to save it! Please don't do anywmore "stupid" and "childish" things to make him take attention of you or even begging him to love you this will only make him turn away even more! We are no longer small kids like last time we are matured adults its only whether do you want to let yourself grow up!

Please don't says that your protected environment don't allow you to grow up because i'm also living in a protected environment i have also grown up and see things more clearly than before. Its only a matter of whether do you want to give yourself a chance to grow up? If you are willing to try as friend i will always be glad to give you the support, encouragement and lend my listening ear! :-)