~~Learing to let go~~

Ever sit down quietly and think about the past what you have done wrongly or things that you have not done or things that u have wanted to do but never have the chance to do it? During my quiet moments my mind will always wonder back to my younger days... Of course there are days that i enjoyed myself very much and wanted to stay put at that particular moment forever and do not wish to grow up at all... But this will never be possible unless one day i met with an accident and lost my memories... Haha

There are many things that i regret that i never stand up on my feet to tell people who bully or mistreat me well off... Til now i still regret and always that i can have a time machine to go back and undo the wrong that i have done wrongly n correct them. However, if i really have a time machine will i be able to undo all these wrong or will i make my mistake worst?! At first, when i think back of all these things i will feel very angry with myself for giving people the chance to do these upon me! Now, as the years past by and i grew up with supporting friends like Fannie and Rajes and also with my supporting dear n his friends... i slwoly let go of all these anger and think of ways to undo this wrong.

No longer mi that quiet person who will keep everything in my heart, i learn that this will make things worst coz when u blew up suddenly people will think that you are childish and immatured... these are the comments that i always receive from them. Come think about it im very upset with their behaviour coz they feel that i have to always listen to what they say and agree with everything that they says. Well, guess what! I'm differnt and the society have change me to stand up for myself and i do have a mind of my mine own.

I learning to let go and give myself a new start, i may not actually like the way i behave now but at least i know im true to myself, to my friends and dear. I cant say that im truely happy with my current behaviour but at least i know i wont be bully and i feel more happy with myself. Wea are all at different stages of our life nothing can stay the same forever, we have to leran to let go n move on with our life ... be it whether you fall very hard on the floor or u suffer a big loss, leran to pick yourself up and move on with life. Its pointless to keep going round and round... its not going to bring us any good mentally and physically.

Im trying to learn to let go of my past... How about you? Don't waste too much time and your energy to think and reflect on the past. Nice memory should always be kept in the heart and bring out to heal the upset wounds but not for you to sit there and hoping and wishing that it will stay at that moment. Life is always a learning process there is always a way out to solve problem if we keep on regreting and holding on to this past we will never be able to solve the current problem... I know im not alone to walk this pave i do have the support that i need its a matter of mi willing to walk it and be a happy person or nt?

I willing to give it a try and change my life and achive the things that want to achieve. I hope and wish that you will finally want to give it a try to face reality and hope that you will stay happy.... I hope that you will stay in the real world rather than walking round and round the circle and compare with everyone about anything in the world just to make yourself better... Its a high time to grow up and just be happy with yourself and things around you... Hope u all the best... We are always here for you if you decide to coem and join us in the reality world! :-)