---Politics Family---

Do anybody out there feel that whatever you do is being affected by your parents' decision? Well, i do feel that i'm trap in a house where by nobody understand me and knows what i want and that i have to fellow my parents' decision. Somehow i feel that how i behave now is being shape by external factors (the stupid society, past experience and friends) and internal factors (my sisters, parents and the genes that i have). This is so tiring and nobodys bother to listen to how you feel, how you think and what you want in life. Sometiems, i feel very lost and don't even know which is the right path to chose and what do i actually want in life!

My house is very politics due to the present of the other lady and hypocrites in the house! I hate it... Hate to see people wearing masks on their face and not being who they really are. Sometimes i wish that the stupid mask that they are wearing will drop off so that people will know who they really are and how hypocrite they are!! So that we the innocent ones will stop being balme for actions that we never do at all!! There is for sure a lack of communication in the family especially between my parents.... that it leads to all this situation that we are in now.

Sometiems i wish that time will turn back to where it all happen so that i can prevent all this from happening.... Guess what? Yes, till now i still blame myself for keep on quarreling and fighting with my fourth sister that why my dad has to find a home else where, where he can find peace and quiet.

I feel that its my fault that leads to my mum unhappiness now... I wish i have a time machine to bring me back to those unhappy moments... than i can correct my wrong doings so that my fairy tale story can continue on rather than being shattered by all these stupid nonsense which me and my fourth sister created and that there will be no more hypocrites in the family too!!