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Work

Have been working in the morning shift for close to a month now, as my usual character i will do my work and bo chap every other things --> all the politics, all the team managers ect... But seems like kind of diffcult.

I was studying today at my desk when my colleague sitting next to me all of the sudden ask me not to study and be careful if i do want to study. Than i ask him why can't i study since there is no calls and I'm not answering any calls now. He said cannot just be careful that why we need a mirror at our desk, so that we can check our back. When we are eating at our desk or even reading out books and not the computer. Than i siad why don't we email each other to chat it will be easier than talking now. To my surprise! He said that's even worst! They can check our mails! Omg! I can't believe what i hear!

My conclusion to my colleague is im going to stay out of all these kind of politics , just do my job & get them done that all. AS for my gossiping team leaders, i can't be bother about them as well. Life is going to be tough there but im sure there are many colleagues who will prefer this way of working and staying out of trouble. Hopfully i can leave the company soon and purse my dreams before i really start to regret... I can't be bother how you going to be a different person with the morning shift staffs and my old shift staffs. But i do find that its rather bias of you...

I will just stay the way i used to be.. less trouble & getting myself involve in unnecessary stress as well... Do kinna of regret changing shift bt its for the better of myself... * Trying to be positive about this matter *

Misc

Been sick for 3 whole weeks and have not been recovering... Went to see Doctor yesterday was given a stronger dose of antibiotics as siad by the Doctor i need it seems I'm not recovering on my own! The first time i went to see him was 1st Jan i got no voice! Went to office early in the morning as its my first day doing the morning shift so die die oso must go down, my supervisor ask to go home rest and see a doctor. He was saying over the phone u cant signal language to other people and customer will think that you are a guy as my voice was rather rough and can't be heard clearly as well.

I'm so sad, never get to enjoy New year at all! And can't go gym and workout as well! Just hope i will be recovering soon. Another upset thing is i reported sick this morning and they don't seems to be very happy about it. Ask me what's the reason, i know i had been taking lost of Mcs last year but i do feel that for 3 whole stupid week i never recover i badly need my rest and get well! So difficult to talk to customer over the phone with your nose block and you nearly die cause you cant breath! :(

I'm upset with my mum saying that im 30 years old this year! Don't know what's wrong with her thinking always want to add on age for me! I hate it! Don't she understand that ladys don't like people reminding that she is old? Just simply can;t understand her with regards to this matter!

My elder sister boys are getting naughter and naughter and simply don't want to listen to what other people says and even beat his mother when they are angry! We as ah yi can't even help to teach his sons & she will feel that everybody trying to get involved and get angry about it. We just trying to help teach your son. Don't come give me the bull shit that they are still young don't know anything! Which is a very wrong concept if don't teach them now they grow bigger it will be even much more difficult to teach... Go think about it

My stupid pc having problem as well so mia very long from blog. Got my friends to come and take a look, was told that the RAm space is too small & my graphic card shlould be having a problem as well. He is helping to checking out whether can buy these 2 componets and change at a cheaper price or not by buying 2nd hand componets as the pc is too old... need to waste money again :( I budgeted it at $200 for 512 RAM and grahic card hope can get cheap than this. For the time being he says i can still use my pc but just don't open & use to many windows at the sametime. Hope he can get the componets fast 7 change them as i want to play games.... haha

Grumpy.... Moody... Irritate... By you and myself....

I'm very upset and moody with myself... have lots of thoughts in my mind about everything that had happen to me since to age and when i can remember clearly who blame and scold me when I'm trying to be honest with people and things that had happen to me. Lately been spending money buying clothes for myself and my bf, perfumes for the both of us and shoes for myself. He is very superstitious ask him buy shoes or heels for me cannot but i can buy for him! What the fu@k! He is always like that! What yours will be always yours don't have to tie so much! Getting more irritated with him as well!

Simply don't understand myself whether do i have feeling for him or not... sometimes yes but sometimes no! Looking at him sometimes just make me so piss.... All i get is i have to think so him all these years! I'm fu@king tired about this but he simply don't seems to understand what kind of person I'm like! I sometimes just hate him to the core of my heart! Talking to him everything he will get offended and unhappy, if will be my fault for making him lose his confidence! If u simply cannot think for yourself what you would like to do with your life is know my business! We are together just for being together and for being used to each other right or wrong?! I'm also been thinking about this!

Sometimes I'm so moody that i wish to be alone but he just simply don't understand! Worrying about me yes i understand but than i want to be alone! Can't you just be like those guysin the show that will be quiet walking beside me and keep all your stupid jokes to yourself as at the point of them i don't wish to heard! When i need you that time you can just sit at your stupid majohon table and continue playing your game! So when i don't need you that time just leave me alone! Don't come and irritate me even further! Yes I'm very grumpy and moody now.... Just really wish to be alone and have only friends around me... Don't wish to inform anybody where I'm going anymore... When i felt like going clubbing i just go! Stop saying that I'm "ah lian" and have not grown up! I just like to dance and that's my dance ground i can't be bother with what you think! Yes i have a lot of displease with you, i don not wish neither is there a need for you to be please with everything i do! But my love for dance is a fact! I don't need you approve whether can i go clubbing and dance since you don't even know how to dance well so you have no right to tell me that's the wrong place to do it!

Idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so grumpy and irritate now!!!!!!! Just want to be alone and alone in this blog of mine........................ Pushing the blame to you and blaming myself.... Just to feel good... But i just want to be alone....

Interview at HP

As mention in my last Blog i went for an interview on Thurday morning. Interview was held at HP, the job seems interesting and fun but problem is it is a full time job! But im on contract as well and not directly being employ by HP. Its by GMP outsourcing company most benefits are giving however have to report to GMP on leave than they will revert back to HP and subject to HP approval. Sounds like quite troublesome. I did not really ask them much question with regards to the job was quite blur that day don't know wat to ask and say... haha... As for pay wise due to i do not have a full time job experince it may be 1.5k which in my current part-time job i should be able to earn that amount or more. Anyway they have not really get back to me the outcome of the job... But feel like don't have much chance to get in as well. Anyway will keep you posted on the outcome again ;p