I'm very upset and moody with myself... have lots of thoughts in my mind about everything that had happen to me since to age and when i can remember clearly who blame and scold me when I'm trying to be honest with people and things that had happen to me. Lately been spending money buying clothes for myself and my bf, perfumes for the both of us and shoes for myself. He is very superstitious ask him buy shoes or heels for me cannot but i can buy for him! What the fu@k! He is always like that! What yours will be always yours don't have to tie so much! Getting more irritated with him as well!
Simply don't understand myself whether do i have feeling for him or not... sometimes yes but sometimes no! Looking at him sometimes just make me so piss.... All i get is i have to think so him all these years! I'm fu@king tired about this but he simply don't seems to understand what kind of person I'm like! I sometimes just hate him to the core of my heart! Talking to him everything he will get offended and unhappy, if will be my fault for making him lose his confidence! If u simply cannot think for yourself what you would like to do with your life is know my business! We are together just for being together and for being used to each other right or wrong?! I'm also been thinking about this!
Sometimes I'm so moody that i wish to be alone but he just simply don't understand! Worrying about me yes i understand but than i want to be alone! Can't you just be like those guysin the show that will be quiet walking beside me and keep all your stupid jokes to yourself as at the point of them i don't wish to heard! When i need you that time you can just sit at your stupid majohon table and continue playing your game! So when i don't need you that time just leave me alone! Don't come and irritate me even further! Yes I'm very grumpy and moody now.... Just really wish to be alone and have only friends around me... Don't wish to inform anybody where I'm going anymore... When i felt like going clubbing i just go! Stop saying that I'm "ah lian" and have not grown up! I just like to dance and that's my dance ground i can't be bother with what you think! Yes i have a lot of displease with you, i don not wish neither is there a need for you to be please with everything i do! But my love for dance is a fact! I don't need you approve whether can i go clubbing and dance since you don't even know how to dance well so you have no right to tell me that's the wrong place to do it!
Idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so grumpy and irritate now!!!!!!! Just want to be alone and alone in this blog of mine........................ Pushing the blame to you and blaming myself.... Just to feel good... But i just want to be alone....
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